Day 1: Choosing to Love Myself and Own My Life.
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Day 39. Thursday, January 14th.
I was up late the previous night, and Mira was off today, so I slept “in” a little. By slept in, I mean I slept until 7am or 7:30. It’s impossible for me to sleep later than that due to the baby elephant that lives above us (loud small child stomping around). That should be stopping soon (filed formal complaint with landlord), so we’ll see! Due to being up late the night before, and not having a chance to get organized/write up my to-do list, etc… I was disorganized and unfocused upon waking.
Therefore, I took my first 90 minutes or so of the day, to get organized, email Joe & Carl about things we needed to be doing in the next week or so, working on, etc… and plan out my next several days. I function much better when I have everything written down, planned out, organized, etc… or else my days spiral out of control into email, internet, Facebook, anxiety, and a lack of motivation. I know that about myself, so I always re-do my to-do list over and over, schedule out my days “to a T”, and have everything in front of my face as much as possible. Reminders, etc… I have terrible short term memory (lots of bad habits in my past plus many concussions/brain injury).
For lunch, I had the other half of that raw ground meat (I eat 1/2 lb. when I eat it, and it’s in 1lb. packages) with some radishes and a mixed greens salad. (Kasandrinos Olive Oil & apple cider vinegar) For our Premium members, you have a discount to Kasandrinos in the Discount Club!
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We’re adding a ton of great companies to the Discount Club almost every day at this point, thanks to our awesome new assistant, Jessica! (Our ‘Rebel Health Ninja’) Today’s addition was The Five Minute Journal, which is something I personally use and recommend. (Part of morning and bedtime routine!) It’s pretty awesome, and a good way to get in the habit of journaling and expressing gratitude regularly!
The afternoon consisted of more work, which was crammed – due to the fact I’m having a very difficult time balancing everything. I took 4 days off last weekend to go to Death Valley, which is about as much time off as I realistically can take off in a month. I then come home to a zillion emails and things to get caught up on. With my family coming in town this coming weekend (which means more time off), I’m very crammed with work and trying to stay on pace and get things rolling we’re trying to get out this month. (January is the busiest month in this industry!) It’s not causing me as much anxiety and stress as it usually does, but it’s still noticeable and throwing me out of my work block/break routine, and I was up late last night, missed morning routine today, etc…
I’ve got to accept that I cannot possibly balance everything I’m trying to do, perfectly, and take lots of days off, and work out/take care of myself, etc… and be okay with it – just doing what I can manage to do. I still haven’t resorted to food as therapy. I haven’t eaten crap/processed foods. I’ve still managed to be active, and get to bed on time (95% of the time). I’m working on remaining positive and focused vs. anxious and frustrated – and doing a much better job than I did before. So that’s all positive.
I scheduled my full comprehensive blood panel for next Tuesday (should be an adventure w/ my phobia, passing out, getting sick, etc…), and will hopefully be able to get in to donate sometime soon after that. (For iron-reducing purposes) The liver ultrasound I did (in order to get the doctor to write a script for me to donate blood) showed that I have some fatty liver issues… which is to be expected due to my history/past. I’m going to be turning even more focus towards healing my liver after these blood tests and blood donation. I’ll be sharing my results with a team of practitioners/doctors that I work with. (Very grateful to have that!) I will be posting along the way, so stay tuned!
In the late afternoon, Mira and I took Marley for a walk along the San Diego River, which is basically across the street. I’ll remember to take pictures one of these times – it’s beautiful!
Dinner tonight was again TACOS! (I’m a tacoholic. I’d eat tacos for every meal if I could and it was optimal for me.) Grass-fed beef, organic mango salsa, guacamole, and tortillas. Yum.
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After dinner, I finished up my work for the day, updated my running to-do list, and got everything ready for tomorrow. We then went to a really nice, relaxing restorative yoga class at our studio down the street. Love me some evening restorative yoga! Great stuff! We’re going to have much more yoga on our site VERY soon, for those who are interested in learning!
By the time we got home, it was 8:30 and time to feed the pets, walk Marley and get to bed. (Mira works the next 3 days – early mornings!)
I missed my morning routine today, and crunched more work than I would have liked, without many breaks, and did get a little frustrated/stressed/anxious about balancing everything. I’ve also allowed myself to get behind writing these posts again (it’s Sunday right now – 4 days later). I could beat myself up about those things.
Or, I can look at the positives of sticking to my diet, making it to yoga, doing workouts, getting work done (albeit not as much or as fast as I’d like), making progress towards more testing, blood donation, etc… in regards to the iron, and sleeping well (95% of the nights). I also just had an amazing weekend in Death Valley. Not everyone experiences places that beautiful in their entire life, and I get to see and experience them pretty frequently!
I’m going to choose the later and focusing on the positive as much as I can and just keep working towards improved balance and optimization
Tomorrow is another day, just as awesome as this one! (Not to be a spoiler… but I’m gonna’ make it through tomorrow and the next day also!)
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